Thanksgiving has seriously come from nowhere it seems. Rather, we’ve just been so caught up in the here and now that it has surprised us. Also, I’ve been sick, thanks to my germy emergency room visit last week. Just a throat and head cold sort of thing, nothing too major. The miscarriage symptoms are almost gone and we are doing well.
Actually, we were even doing okay the night of the ER visit. Once my bleeding started last week I kind of knew what it meant, though I wanted to be hopeful and positive.
Pregnancy loss is something many women don’t talk about and some even refuse to announce pregnancy until the 2nd trimester… Those women were also the ones commenting on my “bravery” for announcing the pregnancy two weeks ago. I am not brave nor am I afraid to talk about the loss.
Yes, we are sad that the pregnancy and baby were lost but we also accept it and are even grateful it played out the way it did. Maybe it is because we were so early in the pregnancy that we hadn’t really become attached to the idea of having another child yet. It could also be our trust in destiny and the abilities of our bodies.
Either way we are doing okay and are moving forward still. This last week has just flown by and with a cold it becomes even more blurred. Thanksgiving just kind of came and went in the blink of an eye.
Everly did get to enjoy her first Thanksgiving feast tonight. She enjoyed the sweet potato mash and the green bean casserole the best it seems. Last year she only got to sample the tastes of Thanksgiving through my breastmilk since she wasn’t eating solids at that time.
We are super excited to have a little girl to share the holidays with. I mean last year she started trying to open presents but she really didn’t grasp the excitement of the season at all. This year the excitement will be something she will begin to partake in and we can’t wait.
We watched the Macy’s Thanksgiving Day parade on TV this morning and told her about Santa. Other highlights were Elmo, Spongebob and Dora, of course. Being parents during the holidays is a trip, it is like we get to see and feel it all through her eyes. When she lights up we all light up and everything else just disappears.
An example: Tonight after dinner we were all hanging around in the kitchen. Everly grabbed the mommy and daddy Little People from her doll house and brought them to the table where she played with them. At one point she placed the mom and dad side by side.
“Mama, dada….. Muah” she says.
*cue the melting hearts* This is the first time she’s ever had her dolls kissing (that we know of) and it was so sweet. I told N “I guess she sees that we like each other huh?” Then we took turns kissing the dolls, each other and praising her.
We have so much to be thankful for, despite hard times and losses. Life is good, you just have to focus on the right things.