Body after baby: The other side of the coin

Posted on Jan 07 in parenting, personal stories, pregnancyby PrintText Resizer Text Resizer

Yesterday I was getting some things in order for our upcoming trip and I came across this dress I got while pregnant. It’s a cute sweater dress that is kind of short, you know the kind you wear with tights.

I was thinking I would bring it along to wear on the trip and was brainstorming what shoes I would wear with it, I have a really cute stiletto pair that I bought for a performance back in the day. They’ve hardly ever been worn.

Well when I put the shoes on and held the dress up reality hit me…

Let me back track a bit:
The day I went in to labor I was looking like this and I weighed in at 150 lbs. That is basically 50lbs of gained “baby weight”.

I was proud to have gained so much because it meant I was nourishing Everly and providing her the best start, plus gaining weight has never been an easy thing for me. 50lbs was an accomplishment.

I was advised to not loose weight too fast since I was planning to exclusively breast feed. It is a well known fact that breastfeeding is a calorie burner and it helps you to drop the baby weight… I didn’t need to be dropping any baby weight.

A week after delivering Everly I weighed in at 115lbs and was again pleased I was retaining some weight because it meant both E and I would have proper nutrition and healthy times…

Seeing myself in my stilettos really made me realize exactly why I’ve been feeling so ravenous and headachey these days. Simply put I am wasting away!

I have these skinny chicken legs, just long bones with skin on them. No shape, curve or meat at all. Stinking gross! I am used to seeing a bit more shape on my legs, you know the dancer leg muscles and all that. For some reason my butt and legs are where I gain or loose weight and right now things are looking nasty.

I weigh 105 according the the Wii Fit… That is 5lbs more that I weighed at the start of the pregnancy and I am still supporting a baby 100% with my breast milk. I think I am gonna die.

Okay, now before you start rolling your eyes and thinking “poor skinny girl” rude comments remember the grass is always greener on the other side and no matter which side you are on it always sucks to be struggling with weight.

Whether you want to loose a few pounds or gain them it is hell. Neither sides hell is less or more enjoyable. Trust me.

NO! I do not have an eating disorder but I do have a complex about people thinking I do since I’ve been questioned about this since being very young. My brothers and mother are also pretty thin, it’s in the family. Something with our metabolism, thyroid or something.

With me, the thing is I honestly forget to eat. When there is something else has my attention, like a baby or a task I am very involved in I don’t notice that I am starving or that I’ve missed a meal. At the end of the day when my head is aching and I am trying to relax I’ll realize I haven’t had a meal since I was reminded to eat breakfast this morning.

By the time I realize I’ve failed at feeding myself It’s often too late as I am feeling like crap and have zero energy to fix or force down a decent meal… and the cycle continues since I am now too lazy and too sick for a proper meal.

I am pretty disappointed with myself right now and I think I should leave those stilettos and that dress home for the trip. There is no way I am gonna showcase my chicken legs :-/

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Take the time for yourself, whether it's sitting down to eat, enjoying a bubble bath, getting a pedicure, etc. As Mommies we feel extremely guilty when we give ourselves some TLC, instead everyone else in the family always gets it. If you don't establish time for yourself now, the day will come, be it next month or in 10 years, when you have nothing left to give. Don't cheat yourself. You'll be a better Mom, wife and friend if you make yourself a priority. With a 2-year old and baby #2 due anyday, I struggle with this constantly but I know I'm worth it and deserve it.

try wearing the dress with knit tights or leggings that are a bright color. those are the ones that make my (not small) legs look... well, fuller than i would like, so maybe it would give your legs a look of more substance. plus, they are super cute. :) i'm sorry that you are struggling with this. i have no idea what it is like, since i've always struggled on the other end of the spectrum, but hang in there and remember how little of your worth is based on how much meat is on your bones. {{hugs}}

I was different, I was back to my pre-baby weight within 2 weeks of giving birth, and exclusively breastfed Emily until she was 5 and a half months. I haven't gained or dropped any weight at all, but I notice I drink a lot more fluids. I do have a lot of loose skin though which is tough to get rid of.

I wouldn't worry, if you feel ok and Everly is healthy too you are fine. Maybe ask your GP about a type of diet to put on a little weight if you want to do that? My cousin had the same issue, I dont know what she did (I think she just ate extra) but she put on a little weight and now looks really curvy.
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I understand. I am overweight, and some days I hate myself for getting so fat, other days I'm ok with it. I have been worried about it lately, so I finally drug myself in for a physical exam, the first time in 9 years. The doctor never said a word about my weight. When I brought it up with the Nurse Practitioner, she said if my blood sugar and blood pressure are ok, they are not as worried about the weight. That was the first time I have ever been to a doctor who did not tell me to lose weight.
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I fear my granddaughter is going to have something similar to your problem. We've been stuffing calories into her since she was born. She's both tall for her age and underweight even if her height were average. Believe me, she didn't inherit a tall skinny body from either side of her family.

Maybe you could put yourself on Everly's schedule? Every time she eats, you have at least a snack of some sort? I'm thinking she should be content when she's full, allowing you enough time to do that.
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This is happening to me! I went down to 90 pounds!! 90!!! So I am now on a high protein diet. I drink a protein shake in the morning with a hot pocket, have some sort of fruity shake mid morning. Cereal, A lunch that inludes a sandwich, soup and a power bar, snack on nuts, pistachios in the afternoon, have a hearty dinner that usually includes a good meat source (hate meat!!) but its pork chops, steak or fish. It sucks having to eat so much, and with the baby, I don't think about myself as much as one would think. Anyway, I understand where you are at. I'm still battling it. But get on a diet plan. My doctor told me this when she prescribed me Reglan for milk production, to make sure you have protein in every meal and it should help me gain back some wait. Reading this, I felt like I could have written this. And Everly is six months right? Jaydon is 10, it does wear down the body after awhile . Hang in there!

Heather
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You have always been rail thin, Ive known you since we were 13. Bring the dress and shoes maybe we can go out in them? It woulnt hurt to have them with you! I will feed you grasshopper!
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