Accountability post: Comfort eating and exhaustion rules this mama

Posted on Dec 02 in parenting, personal storiesby TalinaPrint

I am kind of struggling and not too proud to admit it. Currently the baby/ toddler rearing is owning me and my body is suffering big time. I am in a major rut over here!

Normally I am good about healthy eating. Of course I indulge in snacks and sweets sometimes but we really try to focus on making the healthiest food choices possible the rest of the time. We are usually never sick because of this.

As time becomes scarce convenience wins

Now that my parenting responsibilities have multiplied I’ve sacrificed healthy eating choices it seems.

With the colder months here, the availability of fresh seasonal foods is slim and I don’t like to buy mass-produced pesticide laden fruits and vegetables. So, instead processed crap has become the major food group consumed during the busy days.

In the last month I’ve been living off tootsie rolls, toast, coffee, water and whatever dinners we have. Yep, been skipping breakfast & lunch and just snacking my way through the day. I basically just grab whatever I can unwrap and eat one-handed, anything that doesn’t require cooking or prep time. Right now it is Gardettos, tea and a tootsie roll.

Also, the stress of parenting two young kids is messing with my eating habits. I am now comfort eating my way th

rough the day in addition to just grabbing what is fast and easy. It isn’t quite the eating disorder people always assume I have, nonetheless it is an eating disorder.

Eating something to cover up or cure a stress, for me, leads to sweets or carbs. Carbs fill me up and leave a false satisfied feeling, sweets give an energy boost and temporary happiness. It is all terrible for the body and I need to stop.

Who gives a rats ass if you eat junk Talina? You are a thin as a rail.

Oh yes, I know exactly which of you is thinking this.

My body does! I’ve been sick twice this past month and I normally only get sick once a year or so. Plus, I am nursing Adalyn so my nutrition is her nutrition and if I keep this up my body could just stop making milk all together.

Oh, did I mention I’ve not been able to take prenatal vitamins either? Without a large meal, they make me sick. So instead of just making myself eat I’ve stopped taking those.

Plus, Everly’s also getting the short end of the stick nutrition wise. She’s having peanut butter sandwiches for lunch every day. She loves them and begs for them and I just let her have them. Sometimes I join her and eat one too. The lack of natural fiber in her diet is having its own health consequences.

Last night as she tried to fall asleep she finally pooped after being constipated for a day or so, and it was so hard/ big it made her cry out to us.

The bad eating needs to stop, I know it. Now I am just putting this out there for accountability. Somehow I need to find the time, energy and resources to make eating throughout the day more nutritious for all of us girls. I have to.